the black rose assassin

journal of the vampire flynn

Two Paths Straddled

i see confusion waiting in the wings;
i watch the sky cloud over with haze
and try to read between the lines drawn for me.
this world petrifies me,
and i have never been frightened before.

perhaps because i have never felt
a gust of summer wind upon my face before,
and the darkness deep inside
has never been illuminated by the fires
of sentiment which rage through me.

i do not know how to cast two spells
when all i want is you.

to care for a wounded dove,
wishing to see it soar to the skies once more,
and yet to admire the wingspan of an eagle
and wish to ascend to the heavens with it;
i cannot decide where to fix my eyes.

to traverse down one path
and then, to straddle two, my footing
has never been more uncertain,
my mind never so unclear,
my thoughts never so discordant.

keep me on the road with you.
hold my hand and guide me in the right direction.

perhaps a man can learn the difference
and perhaps a man can draw the lines
i only know the tempest deep within my psyche
and the waters which have clutched me
in their unrelenting throes.

perhaps a man can figure out
how to care for one and remain loyal to the other,
but for me, i simply want to sky to clear
and the horizon to remain the same
as the one i have painted in my fondest dreams.

Posted July 21, 2010

Requiem For a Romance

How the bloody fucking hell does the mortal world tolerate all of these emotions they experience?

It does not happen often that I gaze upon myself and wonder why I had to be capable of feeling. At first, it was bizarre, to look at my companion and realize I wished for something more; something deeper between us. It did not consume me, though, and as such I did not want to rip it apart. Because the times when Gabrielle filled my heart with that sense of touching the face of completion were worth the moments when she left me lacking. And I knew love no differently.

That changed when I fell in love with Victor. We produced electricity between us. After our very first coupling, when my lips touched his and I kissed him for all I was worth, I knew I was falling for him. By the end of that evening, I spoke the words to him. I did not do so impulsively, because I already knew I would not be able to live without this, without him. Because it was what I had been desiring in my most wistful moments. Because I had felt connected with him even when we were rivals. Because I had his blood running through my veins and the tether between us had only grown.

Now, I bleed him so profusely, both in body and in soul, I would need a damn good reason to persist in existing should he be taken from me.

This is what I wanted. This is what I needed, without knowing it. I can think back even to when I had to borrow the seer’s emotions, when I was incapable of emotion in my own right, before the merger of personalities made us two whole beings. And I see myself attempting to light the world on fire around me, laughing in sheer sadism at the proverbial flames while bleeding out the mortals around me. Peter came close once to touching the heart of the matter just once. I did it because my life was empty otherwise. Nobody loved me. Nobody cared one whit for the assassin. He was the meddlesome creature whose demise everybody made clear they would love to witness.

To be loved as Victor loves me is nothing short of a miracle to me. And I do not typically bend a knee to a higher power.

I should have known what this had done to my sentiments for Gabrielle before, but it was much easier to keep the two worlds separated back then. When I had to leave Victor, I settled back into my life with Gabrielle as much as possible, killing with her and sharing her company with increasing disenchantment. She had not done anything and did not change, but I did. I could no longer bend mortals until they broke and could not pretend my heart did not pine for reality, where I could be with Victor again. It saddened me to the point of collapse until I wanted nothing more than to sleep as Peter sleeps whenever I inhabit his body.

Gabrielle could not console me toward the end and she knew it. We had one last tangle in the sheets where I finally told her I love her and even now, I would still affirm that I love her. I cannot be her lover, though, and this was the mistake I made coming into this situation we find ourselves embroiled in now.

Inhabiting her body, I became too wrapped up in the experience to properly think through what would happen when she needed to wake. I knew I would jump over to Peter’s body, to provide her a familiar presence as she tried to acclimate to reality again. What that involved, I did not know before. In a very cold and clinical sense, I figured she would kiss me and I tried hard not to think beyond this point. I failed to realize what a tangled, twisted web my emotions had become; how complicated my sentiments were now.

Both Victor and Gabrielle in the same reality... I underestimated it a great deal because I was not prepared for how I felt last night. As she pounced on me, the only thing that mattered to me was introducing her to Victor. Why? As much because I had spoken of Victor to her as to try and communicate to her, ‘This is my lover here. This is who I am with.’ This is reality, and in reality, I belong to Victor. He is my bonded. I cannot get my mind to unravel from that fact enough to even attempt sorting out what Gabrielle should be to me here.

And as could be expected, she noticed how standoffish I had become - that I was not kissing her readily and not behaving like the person she had known in her dream world. The problem was... I did not know what I wanted from her. It wounded me when she turned away from me. It pained me to break her heart, even if I knew I had to be honest with her. I screamed at her at one point and marched away from her at another. Even now, I am struggling to sort out precisely what I was feeling while that happened. It... offended me that she questioned my sentiments for her, but when she kissed me, I could not even kiss her back properly. I simply cannot pretend with her. I love her and because I love her, I cannot lie to her about how I feel.

None of this makes any sense.

Whenever I relate to the children, or the other members of the family, I am detached from them. It is still the residual embers of being an emotionless assassin which makes it difficult for me to have a direct feeling associated with them. Even with Peter, I do not ‘feel’ the same brotherly affection he has for me and yet, I would defend each of them to the death. Because they all mean something to Victor, perhaps, and for Victor, I would do anything. I have assumed one of these days something will click and I will experience a direct emotion with regard to them. Robin has been the only person with the ability to wound me and this because I do have brotherly affection for him.

So, I assumed this all works in reverse. If you fail to have feelings for somebody any longer, then the valve is shut off, right? The emotions disappear, or should they not? How can I want to push Gabrielle away and not be able to kiss her or entertain the thought right now of bedding her, yet become furious when she casts my words aside as meaningless. I want her to understand I care about her as much as I want her to understand I cannot be hers and these are nuanced concepts beyond her ability to grasp right now.

Perhaps I would feel better about the idea of sleeping with her if she realizes my feelings for her have a limit and my loyalty belongs to Victor. Perhaps this is why it was important to me she understand how things were different, because I could not take another step forward with regard to her and me until she grasped I would not be riding off into the sunset with her. However you look at it, I still... gloriously fucked up last night. Even to the point of having to lie with my lips in a kiss, thinking if I shattered her illusion, she would not be able to heal.

This is making my head hurt.

Victor had to clean up the mess I made. He used one of Peter’s abilities to transfer memories and thoughts directly to her mind and she collapsed shortly thereafter. I do not know if she processed any of what was explained to her. By the time she collapsed, I was ready to myself. I felt emotionally ripped apart and confused, hurt and guilty for forcing Victor to that extreme. I know how very few times he uses Peter’s abilities and I know that particular talent is one Peter himself does not like to employ. I felt like I had failed everybody last night, Gabrielle and Victor both. I still feel that way, to be honest.

And I still do not know what I am supposed to think or feel with regard to Gabrielle.

I am still in Peter’s body. If not for the fact that I would never throw my responsibility onto Victor and Peter’s laps to clean up, I would be tempted to retreat into sleep in my shame. I laid my head on Victor’s lap and wept last night, but when I woke today, unable to sleep, I did not want to rouse him. So, I came out here to think instead. I wish somebody would explain this all to me, because I cannot, and I feel like I am only going to make this worse if I cannot sort through it all.

Heaven fucking help me... what kind of screwed up creature am I?

Posted July 20, 2010

Good Evening, My Lover

As the saying goes... what good is having a female body without being able to exploit it a trifle? *slow, sinister grin* Quite mature content. You have been warned.

***

I stretch, albeit unnecessarily, as I wake and steal a glance around, a lazy smile floating past my lips as I recall the evening prior. The sheets are a tangled mess none of us bothered to straighten before fatigue swept in and claimed the three of us. As such, we lie on top of them, three naked bodies huddled close together, one on either side of the object of our affections with him resting in the middle, an expression of blissful contentedness yet painted on his face.

Pausing for a moment to study him, I marvel at the response something so simple as examining him brings with it. Dark hair atop his head, the corner of his mouth curled in a smirk as though he knows the secrets to life’s grand mysteries and shares them at his leisure. I have always admired that about him, even when we were rivals. His confidence. It was the one thing which stopped me from hating him blindly, knowing deep down inside he and I were probably more alike than I dared admit to myself. It all seems like so long ago to me now, as though those early days have been fading into the backdrop reserved for clever anecdotes, losing their potency. 

A side effect, perhaps, of occupying a different body.

The thought causes me to smirk as I glance down at a form quite unlike the one I am accustomed to seeing. Twenty-seven years in male form, with such a spitfire masculine personality, I have taken for granted certain... portions of my anatomy, if you will. I grin a trifle more wickedly, suppressing a laugh because I do not wish to wake anybody just yet. The body on loan to me, it prevents me from having to share real estate with the man resting on the other side of our lover and made last night possible. My eyes shut and I feel this very female body react to the mere evocation of what happened.

My knee bends, one leg sliding across the disheveled sheets as tingles settle between my thighs.

Men take for granted such things as ‘morning’ erections and the effect potent images have on our cocks. Admittedly, we are rather brutal and pedestrian about how we take out such frustrations, knowing that with a stroke or a thrust, we can achieve the pleasure we seek, some of us more readily than others. Women, I am discovering, are far more complicated creatures. The stimuli internal, the moment the gears within this body begin to turn, the entirety of the form is affected. The desire to wriggle and squirm slips like silk through the psyche and if another set of hands is not available to caress the sweeping curves, their own glide across their soft skin out of sheer need to be touched.

I find myself doing so despite myself, becoming swept up in what the man lying to my left does to me. The hands I borrow settle on my stomach and while one creeps upward, cupping one of my breasts, the other drifts south and teases my clit. I bite my lip and shiver, the images playing on repeat of Victor on top of me, our bodies pressed together, him entering me and the palpable ecstasy which rockets through my body during our coupling. Not that our sexual encounters in Peter’s body were ever lacking. Far from it. But this... was exquisite.

My core turns slick again, one of my fingers slipping inside my folds to tease. I summon additional images: the first time he kissed down my stomach and slipped his tongue inside me, his hands on me while his mouth dispensed immense pleasure. The tightly wound coil which winds tighter and tighter the more he fondles me until it snaps and release floods over me like a tidal wave.

Abruptly, I pause when I feel somebody on the bed shift.

Raising an eyebrow, I turn my head to survey my bedmates, seeing the outline of Peter’s body in the same position I remember it being a few minutes prior. I glance at Victor, though, and see the slight change in way he lies, as though he sensed me swept up, even subconsciously. I smirk. With the copious amounts of blood we exchange, a bond between us is firmly in place, but its depths continue to be plumbed between us. Victor can yet suppress certain things from me, but I lack the skill to figure out how to keep much from my lover. As such, it does not surprise me when his body moves once more prior to settling again.

I spend a few moments wrestling with temptation. Lying on his back, Victor presents himself a far too alluring and simple target for a bout of wickedness and I become infected with the notion to slide down the bed and leave a trail of kisses from leg to thigh, up to abdomen with my breasts and stomach taunting at his shaft. Grinding against him, perhaps traversing downward to lick the length of his cock before pressing our bodies together and kissing him in a passionate manner. Quickly, I force myself to snap out of it before another trickle of lust flows from me to him.

I do so dislike seeming so needy. I simply cannot help myself.

Blinking several times, I force myself to slowly come to a seated position, lithly slipping from the bed and stretching again once I come to my feet. I steal a quick glance at the clock beside the bed, seeing the hours hastening toward sunset, but not quite there yet. The notion nearly inspires a pout. ‘Pouting? Gods, I have already been in this body too bloody long,’ I think to myself, grinning and shaking my head. My eyes shift to the bathroom and my grin turns devilish. I do not know if being in another room shall help dull the pulses passing through our bond, but fantasizing in the shower, undoubtedly, has to be an improvement.

With a shrug, I pad lightly into the bathroom and shut the door behind me. Flicking the light switch, the confined area illuminates and I find myself looking into a mirror, seeing my female form in all its naked splendor. Granted, I had traversed its topography on the other side of the fence in ample measure. Gabrielle, the name of the body’s primary occupant, had me blissfully snared in her dream world for several months and our relationship with each other there could hardly be described as plutonic.

Seeing it as a mirror reflection of myself, however, inspires a much different form of appreciation. I see the glint in my eyes as the only evidence of my consciousness, with a still very masculine way in how I hold myself. Everything else screams of femininity, though. My red hair flowing over my shoulders, the strands touch a set of ample, but firm, breasts. Slim and curvy, my hips sweep outward subtly from a slender waist, completing the hourglass shape. A patch of ginger resides between my thighs and as I glance downward, I cannot help but to admire the entire package, from legs to torso; shoulders, arms and face.

As far as women are concerned, I am a rather attractive one, if I do say so myself.

I smirk, giving one further indication of the assassin who resides therein, then walk toward the shower, ignoring the reflection of my backside lest my scrutiny turn narcissistic. Turning on the water, I wait for steam to filter from the spray before climbing in. I settle underneath the water and wet my hair, slipping my fingers through the long locks and allowing a different form of pleasure to voice unction within me. The heat works into my muscles and drapes over me like a blanket of bliss I immerse within long enough to cleanse myself.

As the last suds of soap slide from my body, however, what brought me here in the first place rises to the surface once more. I feel a wicked grin tug at the corner of my mouth again and deliberately palm one of my breasts. Kneading it once, I bite my lip again and fight the fangs wishing to descend as I let lust consume me. My thumb and forefinger pinch the nipple, rolling it around as the digits of my other hand tease between my legs again. Thoughts of Victor run through my mind and I moan, thrusting my fingers deeper inside me to compensate for the physical absence of my lover. Dangling near the precipice of release, sounds distantly reach my ears until one knocks me soundly from my sensual exploration.

The door opens and then clicks shut. I become acutely aware of the fact that I am not alone. At first a burst of panic - as though I had been caught doing something especially nefarious - throttles through me as an impulse, my hands settling to my sides. It dissipates quickly, though. Tendrils of lust filter through me, possibly originating outside myself, and I grin as I realize from who they find their genesis.

At once, I relax and straighten my posture. Tempted to hum, I merely face forward and wait, running my fingers through my hair again as my entire body buzzes with anticipation. The shower door opens and my interloper slips in behind me. The moment I feel two arms wrap around me, I smirk and lean back against the man clutching me close.

“Good evening, my lover,” I murmur, not able to hide how pleased I am with myself from my tone of voice. I press myself against him all the more, as though attempting to meld our bodies together. “Did I wake you?”

Victor smirks in such a manner I can almost hear it, his lips finding my ear and nipping at the lobe. I hear him whisper, yet the words themselves are not as important as the intentions they state, ones I become tangled in rapidly as his hands take over where mine had been only moments prior. I quiver in his arms despite myself. A sharp moan punctuates his digits slipping inside me and I lean back against him as my knees turn weak, threatening to buckle from the force of my pleasure.

I feel his fangs scratching at my neck. My own finally run down, me unable to stop it. He pinches the tip of my breast and I feel my core turning slicker, the water impeding the friction his fingers generate only marginally. Victor compensates by curling his fingers and the next thrust within me causes my eyes to roll back and a whimper to escape my lips. I lift one arm to settle my hand on the back of his neck while my other slaps against the shower wall, me needing to cling onto something lest I truly do buckle.

“Yes...” I whisper as an impulse, then cry out the next time he touches that sensitive spot within me. My back arches. “Oh gods... Victor, yes...” He increases the tempo and I moan with increasing loudness, me having no thought or care to watch the volume of my voice. As the tight coil snaps, I hurtle headlong into release, my consciousness focused on my climax and precious little else for interminable moments.

As realty filters through the haze, I shudder once more, feeling Victor’s fingers slip from me. His arms remain tight around me, though, and I find the fire within me nowhere near extinguished with one orgasm. At the same time, wriggling against him grinds his hard cock against me and the tingles return anew, my body instinctively knowing what it wants and consuming me to seek it. I turn to face him and equal parts love and lust saturate the searing kiss I place on his lips, my arms circling him in return to press him close against me. I cannot help the thought, ‘Gods, I love you so fucking much,’ as our lips tangle, one of my legs wrapping around him to draw him closer still. Our lips part. I tilt my head and whisper, “I need you, my lover Victor.”

He shivers. A soft growl punctuates the nips and kisses he peppers on my neck. I feel my back hit the shower wall and gasp, reading his intentions as one of his hands slips to my ass and cups it. He raises me up and I wrap both legs around him, gazing at him half-lidded when he lifts his lips from my neck. The light scratches he inflicted on my throat are nothing compared to the way his fangs cut my lips, a harsh, passionate kiss commencing between us. My sharp teeth cut into him as well and blood mixes in our mouths, both of us able to taste our mutual desire and stoke the fires burning bright between us.

I tremble in his grip. Such need throttles through me, it forces my hands to settle on his upper arms, my fingernails digging into him, my back sliding against the slick wall as water continues to rain down upon us. Our lips part as he lifts me up enough for his mouth to wrap around one of my breasts. When he bites down, I call out and nearly climax from the sensation of him feeding upon me alone.

A violent shiver rips through me. One of my hands lifts to his hair and my fingers tangle with his short locks, me panting not from the need for air, but from the sheer force of lust which saturates me. He licks the wounds closed and lowers me enough for our lips and tongues to tangle again. I am not satisfied, though, until I feel him reach down and the tip of his cock tease at my clit.

Victor enters me in one solid thrust. I grip tighter onto him and shudder as he pushes me harder against the tile, my back sliding up and down as he starts pounding into me. My entire form ignites from within and I call out his name, unable to control the sounds and proclamations I make while we remain joined together. My inner walls tighten, my body arching into his as it seeks another orgasm and I feel him tensing, his thrusts becoming more desperate. As he calls out my name, I spill over and we become lost in the haze together.

Tingles and shivers and a plethora of sensations marry with the pulses of climax for what seems like an eternity. I do not know how much time passes from start to finish, but slowly become aware of him nipping at my neck and me smirking in response, with him still inside me. I open my eyes without realizing I closed them and our gazes converge, both of us exchanging looks with one another, sentiments which defy words being passed from one being to the other.

I run my fingers through his hair. Touching foreheads, I whisper the only words I can manage in the throes of afterglow.

“I love you deeply, my lover Victor.” My grin turns devious. “And am rather glad this form pleases you.”

Posted June 25, 2010

A Role Reversal

At times, the unfortunate part of being a bodyless consciousness comes in the form of having to share a residence with another being. Before Peter merged our personalities together, I had never known autonomy in any fashion, let alone fathomed it could be possible. First, I was a dark passenger, then a voice, then a separate personality. In attempting to stitch us back together, Peter made us two rather unique creatures.

I suppose the more appropriate term for us now would be twins. This must make me the evil one. *smirks*

Peter is a whole being now, but so am I, and this coldblooded assassin discovered love in the most unlikely of places: with an old rival. If you would have seen the way Victor and I used to square off at one another, you might have been divided between those casting bets on us fucking, or those on us fighting. We did the latter. I still remember antagonizing him to the point of blows and wiping blood from my mouth as I sneered at him and retaliated with my fists. For being a creature nearly four hundred years his junior, it was quite nearly an even battle.

Well, alright. He might have very soundly beaten the shit out of me.

My, oh my, how things have changed.

Perhaps it was the first moment he pinned me to the wall, when I returned, that I knew something about me had been altered. It certainly was the lack of revulsion at our coupling and I might have declared myself mad at enjoying the feel of his arms wrapped around me. When I turned around to kiss him, I felt as though something emaciated within me had been fed and I craved all I could of it. I fell in love, very deeply, very completely, and very much with a total leave of senses I hope I never recover. If you knew me before, you know how much I might have spat at the mere notion of being infected with the human poison of sentiment. Now, it has become the single most defining part of my being.

I am yet myself, but am vastly different. Life has more meaning, but I still relish the sinful decadence of being an immortal creature. I crave blood while being able to stay my hand; savor the taste of fear while also embracing the flavor of lust. I am a killer, a very efficient one, at that. But I am something more. I am Flynn. Not merely the assassin, but the vampire.

Of course, I never thought it would bring me to this.

I missed Victor considerably. Even occupying the ether with Gabrielle no longer sufficed for me. I do not know if my blood bond with Victor amplifies something about my desire to be near him, but with or without his blood, the compulsion would be present just the same. The world I once enjoyed reeking bloody havoc within lost its color as I started missing my home more pointedly. Yet to occupy Peter's body more often would have been unfair to both him and Victor. I found myself longing for the dreamless sleep Peter enters when I take over. But I was tethered to Gabrielle's world.

The more I attempted to escape, the more I came to realize that the dreamworld I occupied belonged not to me, but Gabrielle. We have theorized since then she might have a special gift for projecting things, but any way you look at it, she pulled me into her false reality. I would only be freed if she was to wake. I asked her about this, and my heart sank the moment she began to speak of a 'bad man' she was avoiding in the waking world. It did not take long for me to draw more out from her. The bad man was her maker, and she had gone into torpor to avoid dealing with him.

Torpor... a form of hibernation for vampires of Victor's bloodline. How in the heavens a vampiress in torpor found me defies explanation. How we became linked to one another baffles me even today. But our link proved to be beneficial as I spoke with Victor, seeking an answer to this paradox. I needed dreamless sleep to fill the spaces of time between my moments with my lover, because being separated from him was tearing me apart. This was when he reminded me of a curious quirk our blood bond possesses.

My blood bond with Victor is not linked to a body, it is linked to my consciousness. Therefore, if I was to inhabit Gabrielle, he would be able to find me and set her free from the captivity of her maker. Both John and Peter agreed to accompany Victor to where Gabrielle was being kept. And within a few days' time, all but one immortal sister of Gabrielle's had been slain. The woman who gave me a home for eight months could now be freed. There, however, was one caveat.

Gabrielle... is going to need to slowly reacquaint herself with reality.

It is what made the madness of the ether so much fun to me, before my heart pined for deeper things. We slaughtered and bathed in so much blood, Elizabeth Bathory might have been jealous. For all intents and purposes, it was a vampire nirvana. We do not know how long Gabrielle has been in her self-made heaven, but the process of recuperation is going to take some time for her. And her immortal sister would not be able to handle Gabby's current level of mental instability.

This leaves me where I find myself today. Changed. Falling in love with Victor has created something different within me. It has given depth to a killer. I once was the black rose assassin. Who I am now remains to be completely defined. Of course, there is one rather large shift which has taken place... seeming as though Gabrielle is going to need some time to get used to reality once more.

Love is one thing. Inhabiting a female's body... another thing entirely. Yes, you heard me correctly, I am a man in a woman's body. Allow me to introduce you to the vampiress Gabrielle, my lover in the ether and now... irony be damned... the form I have taken, until either Gabrielle is comfortable with reality once more... or I find a body of my own.

Gabby5

If only such a feat was easy to accomplish.

 

Posted June 23, 2010

A Letter to My Lover Victor

Left some weeks ago to Victor, on his desk, as I considered that which had been running through my heart and mind. Sentiments I yet echo with all their sound and fury.

***

My lover Victor,

I find myself lost in thought this day and have stolen more time from the seer to sit at your desk and set a pen to paper. I apologize for not speaking these things to you directly, but I have no notion of your sleeping habits and did not wish to wake you. I recall before you used to rest rather soundly and I am not certain how much of this has changed. I usually slip away from Peter some time after I feel his body succumb to sleep. (Except for that one day when I composed your poem, that is to say.)

Whatever the matter, there is so much it seems I wish to say to you and yet when we are together, it feels as though I only get half the words in my head and heart out to you before our time together has passed. Perhaps because there are so many thoughts which jumble together and sorting through them becomes as unraveling knotted strings attempting to sort through each one. I am certain you know this condition, even if you are more experienced than me with the matter of sentiments. Somehow, I feel as though we have both been in the same state these past few days.

Is it this blood bond causing that? I ask only as a matter of curiosity because I do not know how these things work. Since emotions are so new to me, I do not know how one distinguishes one from the other and while I know my sentiments are my own, it seems being with you amplifies them. Not unnaturally. Please do not think anything I say or do is not meant to its purest form. That is simply it... I never knew myself so capable of such emotion, so I often wonder if this is something I have been suppressing or something I am finally being enabled to experience, be it through your words and their echo in my heart or your blood and its effect on me. I rather like it, whatever has caused it to come to pass. Such is why I have been behaving as I have.

You are the first person with whom I have ever experienced intimacy. I can be tender with you. I have never been with another creature who would appreciate tenderness. Or with whom I wanted to actually be tender. Is this a handicap of mine, then? Being devoid of such emotions for so long? Is this because I was never fully human?

If so, then why do I enjoy this so much? I feel as though I have been... atrophied, emotionally-speaking. Being so cold and so cruel for the entirety of my existence, this sudden warmth seems to be turning lights on inside rooms which have been barren all of my life. Illuminating me from within. Such is why I wrote those words in that poem. Did the poem please you? The seer said it would. I hope such has been the case. I am not a poet, but I recall you enjoying the seer’s poems as he wrote them for you and that was how I was feeling.

*sighs* I am so full of questions, my lover Victor. You must forgive me. I am not usually so uncertain of myself, but I very much want to learn more about this. Feeling for you has done something to me I know is a good thing, yet I wonder... I wonder if it is ever jarring for you to see me in this state, knowing me as you had. Sometimes I fear I will not please you, acting so very different from how I had before. I believe this is what the mortals call an ‘irrational fear’, yet I have discovered emotions often cause very contradictory thoughts. I know I have still the capacity within me to be cruel and ruthless, but I cannot direct those behaviors toward you any longer.

You make me vulnerable. And I like it. See? Contradictory thoughts. Who over hell and under heaven actually enjoys being vulnerable? Yet, I enjoy being vulnerable with you. I enjoy exposing my heart and sharing my thoughts, and yet the more I do so, the more I find myself wondering what it is you might be thinking. About me. About us. About the seer. I hope I am not being an interloper. He has been so understanding and has conversed with me so many times now, and yet, I have found myself dwelling on what you said about possibilities. Please, inform me if I am overstepping my boundaries ever. I am not very good at surmising where they are just yet. If I ever ask you a question you do not wish to answer, then I will understand your refusal.

We seem to be riding the coattails of a hurricane, though, do we not? Following a path without knowing its end. I have no expectations, but I do have a thousand different inclinations all buzzing about within me I am trying to sort out. For instance, I study the wedding ring on the seer’s hand very often. I think about what you said with regard to marrying the both of us. And it pleases me. Yet I have not said anything because I have never wanted you to think I would come between you and the seer. I accept my place, as I always have, and am grateful for it now more than ever.

I cannot help but think of those things, though. Our forming blood bond... I cherish it as I have no other thing. Not a favored blade or a treasured memory of a kill. Is this what being in love with somebody is like? Being moved to tears and inspired toward laughter... wanting to be closer than the molecules between two bodies pressed together and having every thought consumed by that other person. If so, I am very deeply in love with you. So very surprised at how fast and how hard I have fallen, yet so very, very glad I have done so. Even as I write this, I blink back tears at such thought. Only the thoughts. Thoughts which materialize into tears... how strange a phenomenon. Heavens, I must compose myself before I continue.

I apologize. A few strayed onto this piece of paper before I could stop them.

As I was saying...

My lover Victor, do not take this as a demand on my part for anything more than what I have agreed upon, because I would not issue demands of you. I simply feel I must say all of these things to you while wondering if I am depositing a heavy load on your shoulders for doing so. I want very much to talk to you about all of these things, to see if one can understand them at all. Perhaps it is a fool’s errand to try. Emotions, I am discovering, run parallel to wit and reason and do not often intersect them. Only madmen would know of this insanity in advance and ask for it. But there is beauty in madness, is there not?

I suppose all of this is to say... I accept whatever place you want of me, and while I cherish all of these things which link us together, my telling you this is not an assertion I feel lacking in wanting more. Simply that I value you. *coy smirk* I have said so many things, yet once again, I feel as though I have only written half of them down. As I untangle more threads, I shall share those thoughts with you as well.

Do not fret over the future. It shall work itself out. I have all of the patience in the world for you, and not mere mortal patience. The patience of more than an assassin, or a vampire, even. The patience of a lover. The patience of your lover. I am bound to you. I am yours. Ask whatever you will of me and it shall be done as you say. And for once in my existence, I am saying those words not under any person’s compulsion, but of my own free will. That, in and of itself, is a gift.

You are extraordinary, my lover Victor. I am glad I did not miss the chance to love you. I have said it several times, but feel compelled to say it again. Thank you for not forgetting me.

My blade, my hand, my heart, I give to you.
Flynn

Posted June 22, 2010

A Reflection on Changes

We. A word indicating two persons: one’s self and another. Born from the convergence of you and me to form one single entity. What a novel concept.

I have been embracing this notion of ‘we’ rather pointedly these days. For the first time in my existence I have wanted it as I have desired no other thing prior. To belong somewhere, to someone, and one I can trust with that one thing I have never trusted another with before. Blending myself with another until a whole other creature forms from the evolution contained therein.

I am still very much myself, but I am something different. I have sensed it for some time now as I have opened myself to emotion and allowed it to have its effect on me. I could yet be the cold, cruel bastard, but I do not wish to be. Quite hard for me to fathom and equally hard for me to explain. And yet, I have found myself in a posture I have never embodied on my own before.

A penitent. I do not typically apologize to any being for the manner of my conduct, and yet I have spoken with John and Lydia, Robin and Victor’s immortal child Delilah, and issued some form of a plea for reconciliation and acceptance to each one. Even if I have not come out and issued the words ‘I am sorry’ themselves, I have at least indicated my vexation with myself and my former actions. It is... rather odd. And yet I mean such gestures for the first time in my existence.

Not that I have ever extended an olive branch falsely. I have been much more apt to scoff at any hand extended and instantly distrust its owner. I suppose that is the difference now. Not only am I not insulting the ones who would grant me amnesty, I am being the agent of reconciliation myself. It has been quite a strange and surreal posture to find myself in.

And yet, it continues to please me. All the more so, actually. How does a being begin to articulate the way it ‘feels’ when one is so deeply in love with another, they would cross bridges they would have scoffed at mere months - weeks - beforehand? It has... shaken me down to the very foundation of my being. I said to him... ‘My blade, my hand, my heart, I give to you,’ and such was meant with the utmost gravity. A pledge... a vow... they were my way of saying, ‘I am yours,’ and issued with as much severity as a creature like me can impart upon his words.

We. That construct which has afflicted my thoughts in the most pleasant of manners. Beginning to realize your existence is wrapping itself around another’s, to the point of not being able to imagine said existence in a solitary manner ever again. I do not buck against the tethers of my restraints. I share him with the seer and have made just as solemn of a vow not to infringe upon their relationship with each other.

It does not stop me from thinking about him, though. From delving within for that warmth I experience when I am near him. From scenting him upon my person and tasting him within my blood. From reliving our moments and realizing precisely why I am apt to extend olive branches to those I have refused to do so toward previously. Because I make no demands of the future, but I wish there to be a future.

How odd for me to ‘feel’ as such, but it is truth. Tasting him within my blood now brings with it the knowledge we have a growing link between us. A blood bond. That which has been granted to me shall not be stripped away and the thought pleases me to no end. The affections of another... I have been emaciated for longer than I have realized and now that sentiment floods my soul, I do not wish it to stop.

I am only glad the body I inhabit would affirm all the sentiments I could express. I would fight for you, protect you, die for you. I hold a solemn charge each time I inhabit this form to keep it intact as it is the house of not one, but two, of Victor’s lovers now. And yet, I know Peter would speak the very same words. Such provokes a subtle smirk on my face. The change from seer to assassin and back again is simply a changing of the guard.

I cannot begin to reason what the future will have in store... if this arrangement we maintain shall be acceptable for all parties for an indefinite period of time, but as I looked at Robin last evening and faced his anger over the sins I have wrought against him, I kept my shoulders squared and my back straight. Because I want this and shall do whatever it takes.

We. I am yet exploring this notion, placing faith inside it, and allowing it to influence me in the strangest ways possible. Yet I relish it. I love and love so very intensely, it shakes me to the innermost portions of my psyche. And I would not change one thing about it, regardless of how the perception others have of me might change. Perhaps they change for the better as well. I have held on to my pride over being the devil for so long that it has blinded me to the thought of what if.

What if it is a much better existence to be less of the demon for the sake of feeling? I know there are aspects of my being which shall not change because they are such ingrained attributes, I would have to cease being me to amend them. However... I am watching these sentiments work their magic upon me and curious of the creature taking shape.

He seems to be much more realized, and much fuller, than I ever have been.

As I have spoken once, so I repeat, my lover Victor. My blade, my hand, my heart, I give to you.
Flynn

Posted May 13, 2010

The Path to Paradise

I do not claim a great deal talent for this sort of thing. The seer is much the poet and I am much the brutality so often divorced from the very things which inspire poetry. I suppose one could say, though, I have been given much to comprehend now. Poetry seems to be a rather apt form of expression.

***

within the darkness, within the pools
of consciousness inside my twisted thoughts,
i found the trail to heaven laid before me.
the path to paradise, which winds through
    the hollow echoes, until the world
    around me takes form in such
    unexpected manners.

life pours through my veins.
voices which i long since silenced
  (or perhaps, never allowed speak before)
form a chorus, one bursting into song
  then another, and another until the
  entire host of the heavens and
  attendants to the deities are put to shame.

a manic rhythm beats in my chest.
catacombs long since abandoned
  (or perhaps, never even occupied)
have been flooded with light;
  pure, blinding light as it wraps around
  me like a coat of many colors and inspires
  the waking of a dawn within my soul.

my very soul,
where impoverished and atrophied sentiments
have lingered, shackled to the walls.
loosed, the chains; the very chains which have
kept my heart a prisoner
within a chasm dark as the blackest night.

i dine on the most sacred of meals.
blood which flows as wine and
   bread, the body laid out to savor.
i blink through crimson tears
  in this most indulgent of communions;
a feast before me of much more than
carnal pleasures and shadowed motives.

to wander into paradise
   a pilgrim to the altar,
   an acolyte to the temple,
and find myself within nirvana,
       this demon of demons trembles.

to need. to love. to want.
   the veil parts and i linger within its gates.
let the angels expel me.
let the minions of hell scoff,
   should i be proven unworthy.
in life and death,
   and shades of existence in-between,
i have seen the brightest light
and felt the most comforting warmth
   in the most searing of embraces.

let judgment come to me
    i would not fear its heavy hand.
for the catacombs are occupied
   and the voices resonate within me
echoes shaking the walls of the deepest chasm
and inspiring a pulse with their sound.

Posted May 7, 2010

Considerations on Love

I love you.

Never have there been three words which have confounded me more, both in my inability to speak them and my inadequacy to feel them. Sentiments are not matters which I can delve into readily, in part by choice and in part, by design. After all, I am an assassin. A killer. Granted, being a vampire precludes me from being ignorant as to the stain of death upon my hands, but being a killer of killers... one who, without conscience, had slaughtered his own kind... This lends itself to an altogether different form of detachedness.

I belong to no one. No one camp can claim me. I am immortal, I am vampire, and yet the fact that I can stare any being in the eyes and run a blade through their chest means I swear fealty to nobody’s banner. Call me what you want. A devil, a bastard, an arrogant son of a bitch, and I shall only smile and confirm all three. The scorn of no being causes any pause in my step and does not haunt me in my dreams.

I prefer to think of it as unapologetic, to be perfectly honest. Why should I ask forgiveness for being what I am? Does the fact that it causes others to be uncomfortable that I can send any one person into the icy grip of death dictate I must bow to their discomfort and make excuses for myself? I would hardly be a very skilled assassin if I wasted such time wringing my hands over the very things which make me so efficient. I execute with skill because I do not feel a thing for that which I murder.

And yet, it seems as though this has changed while not changing at the same time. I do not bow and do not apologize yet. It would take an act of The Fates themselves for me to do something as detestable as reconsidering the very thing which makes me what I am. At the same time, I have found myself questioning just what I am at its very core. Perhaps because I am apt to finally allow myself to feel attached to someone.

Assassins are solitary creatures by design and I was conditioned by my experience to always keep an attentive eye focused toward everything surrounding me. The way one walks, the way one talks, their very quirks and mannerisms all reveal weaknesses when one is looking intently enough for them. One is suspicious of everything and takes note of the slightest details, the smallest changes in their environment at any given time. Such is why I find myself disappointed in a most grievous slip. I failed to recognize something I wish I would have known before.

Victor. I never had much reason to consider he and I could be anything more than the rivals we paired ourselves toward being. Even when I knew him to be telling the truth, I refused to let myself trust him, blinded by my own rage at dying. At fading from existence now that the seer had no need for me. Countless times, he told me he did not begrudge me my existence, but each time, I wanted to scream at him, “Then why are you killing me?” Even I knew this question was not entirely fair, though. The seer lived as half-formed of a life as I did. He loved him, and wished the rift between us mended. 

I have not forgotten that.

And in allowing the merger to take place, he permitted me the gift of Gabrielle. Finally, I was a fully-formed being, independent of the seer in whatever reality I inhabit whenever I am with her. In meeting her, I met another creature as damaged as I am who can appreciate the things which bring me pleasure. Having another with whom to share the very decadence I crave has opened me up to the possibility of thinking of myself as something other than a solitary creature.

Such is why I needed to speak to Victor when I heard my name evoked.

I do not know what break in the veil permitted me to hear it, or why I honed in on the words ‘I do somewhat miss bantering with him.’ I cannot tell what caused me that moment of realizing he spoke something more than a fondness for our tête-à-têtes, but when he mentioned yet needing to decompress from the conversation I encroached upon - when twenty-four hours failed to make me as distant of a memory as I thought I was - I had to confront him. I cannot begin to explain why, because I do not even understand it myself. It was a compulsion, though, which surmounted any other I had ever experienced prior.

With uncharacteristic desperation, I stood willing to offer whatever he wanted should he have the desire to take it. I only wanted the answers to my questions. Having had no desire to permit him a daliance I knew he would have relished before, I even chanced enjoying the carnal pleasures with him now, if just to understand that which I could not begin to fathom. Why would he miss any aspect of me? I knew how I treated him and how we behaved toward one another as a result.

And why did I care that he missed me at all?

Perhaps because I always considered him the seer’s, and the seer’s alone. Prior to being in this place with Gabby, I never knew one of Peter’s lovers to want anything more than my skills or a proper fuck. The first creature I ever had the impulse to love - Monica - brushed me away with the flick of her hand the moment the seer’s humanity interlaced itself with the life I had carved out as a vampire. When Peter took hold, I faded. When I woke from that slumber, I became the voice in the shadows, observing and very rarely participating of my own accord.

To be perfectly honest, I felt as an emasculated demon, given the ability to possess and yet, not the ability to be who I am. My existence had been so intertwined with the seer’s, I never could act or think or react as I might have to any of the situations which presented themselves to us, and the experience left me cheated. He possessed the upperhand. He won dominion over the body we inhabited. So many times, though, I wished to ask if he had ever considered how I might have wanted to participate in any given number of those events.

Granted, I would have craved the debauchery. I am yet what I am. One clear example I can offer, though, has much to do with the children. Considering I am permitting myself complete honesty at this point, I will indulge it further and confess, I always looked at them with some degree of pride, noting that while I could not have sired them on my own, a part of me existed in them. They were my progeny as well. As much as I understood being confronted about not propositioning Lydia, though, when she was first turned, it offended me at the same time. I desired to protect them, a concept which should have been alien to me, yet one I acknowledged just the same.

And yet nobody stopped to consider for one moment such might have been my posture.

With Victor, I missed every cue which might have been laid before me that he saw me as anything other than his lover’s split personality. I, who am not apologetic for what I am, hang my head at seeing now that I dismissed him before he could even state a case, the very thing which normally raises my ire when it is directed toward me. I do not assert my opinion in the face of such adversity, and neither did Victor. In doing so, I failed to see the potential toward being loved by another soul in this reality, my original home. I left it for Gabby’s without issuing a second glance backward.

Maybe this all was to force me to see my own folly, although I know had the situation been changed, I would have still refused the sentiments offered to me by Victor. No, it took Gabrielle to soften my heart and realize I could need another without it diminishing who I am. Gabby has never asked me to be anything but, and neither has Victor. And to allow myself the most intimate of expressions with Victor left me vulnerable to the impact of his kisses and the words which took this heart of stone and pierced it as though it had become flesh again.

‘All of me loves all of you. I’ve always meant that.’

‘Did you think you would be so easily forgotten?’

I do not wish him to forget me now. I do not wish to abandon Gabrielle, but now I want so very much to visit my old home and figure out who I am... what this creature is which is forming around that heart of flesh I have permitted to take shape, dark though it yet is. I am a conscienceless killer. The demon vampire. The black rose assassin. Yet I toy with notions I would have never thought possible even months ago. Gabby already knows in her own manner how I feel about her. The words themselves are yet those fickle mortal constructs which do not forge an impact in the grand scheme of her economy.

Yet, I know just as surely as sit here today... I both love Victor and want to love him. It is such a paradox to me to consider being wanted by another simply as I am, especially in a world which has always sneered at me in disdain. A world where I do not even possess a true name. Flynn. Given to me by my brother in disdain and worn as a badge of honor, in defiance against his initial loathe of me. As though expressing to the cosmos that I would spit in its eye for disregarding what a force to be reckoned with I am.

I am something different now. Something not completely formed. Whatever I am, I take a strange bit of confort in knowing at least I have a place, and a person, in the land from where I was exiled. As such, I am grateful a maestro saw fit to dance with the devil this once. And I thank him for giving me something to look forward to those times when I am permitted to visit.

Posted May 6, 2010

Thoughts from the Realm of Shadows

What is happiness?

I find myself musing upon the concept, attempting to turn it around in my mind as though the riddle could be so easily solved. Oh, I know what you finite mortals claim it to being. Whenever your senses are sated and you lie fat and content, you claim happiness until the sensations fade and leave you wishing to consume more. I have observed enough of you to know the difference.

You dine on alcohol and food - sex and drugs - for your ritual panaceas. I have killed so many of you simply by promising you one of those things and lulling you into a false sense of security. When I inquire as to what happiness is, I am not asking for these trivial, surface-level things you all might enumerate to me.

What is love?

Oh, I know what many of you claim it to being. Such is why I choke back the urge to growl each time one of you asks if I can or have ever loved another. I cannot abide by your definitions because I have watched you fickle lot. You chase that which makes you feel good and abandon it in the next breath. You choose your mates and turn your backs on them with the changing of the wind. If a creature such as me is capable of love, I assure you, I could never be so capricious.

Not that I do not use and abuse, because I take great pleasure from this. I have never told another I love them, though, simply to have this pleasure sated. I take because I want. I drain until the limits of my lust are met. And I dispose and not give a second thought to what I leave in my wake.

I am not, however, merely the killer. I am capable of something you might claim to being love, yet I still scoff over your misuse of the term. Such is what I have come to discover over the past few months.

Do demons need companions? Does the devil not sit upon his throne in hell and spit at the face of God Himself, the one being in the construct of good and evil who would understand him best? Perhaps, but if Satan seems content in his solitude, I can only imagine he has never danced with another demon and been able to share debauchery with them. I have been forced to be brutally honest with myself over such matters, due in part to two creatures I find myself considering.

My previous brushes with love were both corrupted. Wince all you would like at the statement, but from my perspective, they were. There was the witch. Oh, I remember her quite well, for she was the first to stir within me that need for another being. As she woke that compulsion, though, she woke the seer. She woke the human side to me and shoved it so much into the limelight, I turned my back on my vampire instincts, wishing to be fully mortal with her.

She buried me for six years. I failed to exist while the seer walked in the sun as a human with her. Never once did I hear her speak the words, "I miss Flynn" to him and when she became a vampire herself, the witch desired me, but not as a companion. As a weapon. As a tool. Yes, I had a hand in corrupting her, but I had not enchanted the demon angel I thought had been gifted to me. I had helped create a monster who wished to use me, much the same way my maker had.

Precious little wonder the seer needed my assistance to run a blade through her. I daresay we would not have been able to otherwise. In forging a union with me, though, he made me a split personality.

I cannot tell you precisely what I am any longer, except to say I am a consciousness too fully formed to die altogether. I gained unction with the first female he bedded after mourning his wife's loss. She called me the devil and I thought I had my companion, until my presence could not be deemed enough for her. I admit, my sentiments for her were tainted by the seer's. I turned my back on her as readily as she did me, and he did her. That, however, is a story for another time.

I have been wary of the people with whom the seer has danced since then, however. The young vampiress who trembled in my sight. And then the rival. I pause to shut my eyes as Victor comes to mind. I loathed him in such a manner, it should have been telling to me. Why? Because in him, I saw my death. My demise. I served one purpose to the seer in my captivity, to taunt his vampire instincts out from within. To force him to revel in that which makes us children of the night. When he met Victor, he met one whose instruction he heeded more than my own.

Yes, because he did not seek to corrupt the seer, whereas I would have had us drowning in a sea of blood. I know why the seer heeded his instruction above my own. Still, I had no purpose any longer. I could not be the name which made the mortals quake. I could not slaughter and revel in the blood spilled. It took a fist fight with Victor before I spoke the words to another being. Before I confessed my existential quandary.

And he responded by giving me a purpose. Yes, it would only be one last journey; one last mission to end an enemy, but I reveled in it. All the carnage. The piles of dust and twisted limbs and pain and death... blades flying and arrows soaring through the air. I swore in that moment, I had shoved the Devil from his throne and rested in the seat he occupied. For one brief, shining moment, I stood atop the world.

Such is why I agreed toward the merged personalities. Go out on a high note, as the mortals are oft to say. I fought the good fight with my rival, but even as my lips buzzed from the kiss he offered, I noted to myself he kissed the seer and not the assassin. Or, so I thought at the time. There would be nothing remaining in this plane of existence for me. And so I faded.

What am I?

I yet exist and I cannot figure out why. My perpetual purgatory, to linger in the backdrop and wait and wonder. Perhaps it is my sentence for the things which bring me pleasure, to have to exist within dreams and nightmares, old tales and ancient whispers. The seer merged his personalities and yet, I woke someplace else and found her. Gabrielle. Gabby. I do not know if she truly exists, this creature as damaged as I am I care for as greatly as I do. She speaks constantly of dreams and reality and it has brushed off on me enough that I can never promise her either of us truly inhabit the world we occupy.

It has especially become confusing to me now.

I cannot explain it other than looking through a glass darkly and hearing my name yet on the lips of my rival. I had not been aware of much else in the seer's world until now... but for some reason, I heard my name being mentioned and asked why. Why?? Why still speak of me? Why do you miss the banter? Damn it, Victor, why mention me when I was nothing more than a petty nuisance to everybody in the seer's life?

I defied my promise to never to assert myself again. I allowed my consciousness back into the seer to prod and figure it all out. I taunted Victor in the worst ways possible to watch his restraint slip like rocks into the sea, knowing damn well what might be the end result of it all. Chancing I might enjoy that which I spat upon before if just to know why... Why? Why do you give a shit?

Now, I am glad I did.

What is love? What is happiness? I still could not provide a concrete definition for any of you because my grasp of such human sentiments varies even from the humans themselves. I have discovered, though, that at times the best purpose one can have in this world is being appreciated by another being. Oh, I yet crave death and destruction. I yet enjoy setting a match to this world and watching it burn. And although I vowed not to disrupt the seer's life, I still grin like the devil and say...

I am back.

Is the dream a reality or is reality a dream? I cannot say for certain, but I can claim this much. I still taste his blood in mine.

Posted May 2, 2010

memento mori

"remember, you must die..."

The world exists as a clever construct in which the waking world reasons its way through the things its senses perceive. We are, at once, here and not. Existing and floating in the ether. Defining what sight, taste, touch, hearing, and smell attempt to grasp hold of and missing the entire plane of the supernatural all at once. What I am is precious little more than the darkened corner of your imagination and yet, when my cool breath hits your neck, you are distinctly aware of the danger I pose to you.

Come with me, scared, finite creatures and allow me to make your acquaintance.

What I was is just as important as who I am now. I was an assassin, the most feared name to all who happened to know of it, who heard the myths and knew the ghost to be all too real. Nobody saw me except those I allowed to gaze upon my countenance and yet all who did knew their time had ended. Dust and bodies littered the city streets because of me, both the vampires I was charged to kill and the humans whose lives I squeezed from their veins until each precious drop sated my thirst for blood.

I vanquished. I conquered. I was a god among men. Until the dying embers of my mortal existence rose up to overthrow me from the throne which I inhabited.

The seer. You know him as Peter, or Poet. I became precious little more than his 'alter ego.' The vampire nature he refused to embrace. The twisted indulgences and pleasures he was forced to deny himself until the one who helped him reconcile his fractured existence became a part of our reality. Before that time, I was the whisper in his ear, summoning the boy scout into decadent indulgence. Afterward, when he had interwoven the portions of me which made him whole, the sliver of me which remained found unction in this plane of existence I now inhabit.

I might merely be a dream. Perhaps I am a myth again. Perhaps I purely exist to remind you daft creatures what a vampire truly thinks when it casts eyes at you with nefarious intent and whispers the dark lullaby of death in your ear. You can deny it all you like, but you race headlong into the arms of the grim reaper and beg the demons to whisk you into the fires of hell. I have seen it all before, pet. I have watched you beg and watched you scream and watched you bleed. I torture you and you come back for more. I bring you to the heights of pleasure and then oppress you with the burden of pain. You lick your lips for a taste of decadence and I seize your life as recompense.

Perhaps, I shall tell you a story. Possibly, I shall toy with you, batting you around like a cat with claws extended, until I capriciously cut you down. And maybe, I shall share with you the other creature who inhabits this realm with me, my wicked cherub who inspires nightmares with the sharp points of her fangs. Whatever my purposes for you, if I allow you to drift from my presence with your pulse yet quickening and your body still intact, know that for the god you thank, there is a devil looming in the shadows. Waiting for the right moment.

I am that devil. My name is Flynn. And some day, somewhere, I shall claim your soul.

Posted March 9, 2010